Had been crying for days, ever since friday night. my eyes were super ugly right now ! can you imagine i cried for the whole day yesterday especially at night when my family were not at home. this was the first time i felt that im so lonely at home. without jocelyn presence at home i really felt v. unsecured. i wanted to take my afternoon nap badly after i came back home from KAP. but nobody was at home, i dont feel secure hence i couldnt sleep.

Exams are approaching nxt week, yet i dont have the sense of urgency ! after since Jocelyn went back my heart totally sank. crying & sleeping are what i am having right now. nothing gets in my bloody mind ! i think im super lousy.

This morning i called Jocelyn i asked her to come back, i miss her tons like mad. i told her my feeling yesterday when nobody was at home and yes i cried badly on the phone. she told me that tmr she will call canada for a reply and she will get back to us. I will be praying hard that canada hospital wont have any vacancy for nurse.

No words can describe the misses i miss her. and i guess nobody understand the feeling.

Niang is forever that sweet ! our hearts're linked, and it's real. she msged me when i was with my classmate this evening when she woke up. she asked me am i alright. i was shocked by her msg ! i replied her that im fine. she told me she dreamt that i was crying badly. omg ! isnt this morning i was really crying badly when i was on phone with Jocelyn. that what heart telepathy.